I was introduced to WordPress with a blog
that asks the following questions:
1. How do you feel about the fact that your same-sex attraction may not change? How does that affect the decisions you make for your life?
2. If you do not affirm homosexuality, what would you say to these ex-ex-gays who have clearly put blood, sweat and tears into trying to do what they believed was right?
3. If you do affirm homosexuality, what is it about the lack of change in sexual orientation that made you believe homosexuality is okay?
4. How does change or lack of change in our life circumstances relate to Christian theology and the Christian life?
1. At the ame time that I was being educated philosophically by Huxley, I was being educated politically by Ayn Rand, who tells us “A is A”. What is, is. I am attracted to what I am attracted to, and I believe it’s my brain telling my body what it finds attractive.
3.”homosexuality is”, not “homosexuality is okay”. Until proven otherwise, I have realized that the brain and the mind and consciousness itself are separate phenomena, independent yet intertwined; sex is of the body, therefore it is ruled not by the mind, nor by the “soul”, but by the brain, which is part of the body, not the soul (as it were).
Now, think about this for a moment: in the standard distribution among any population, it is numerically necessary that a certain – very small – percentage of that population fall otuside the ‘norms’ established by the sheer existence of that majority established within that standard distribution. If it is physically/hormonally determined, then the 10% we find in the general population BELONGS THERE. An old friend from Atlanta, Denise told me, “That’s what makes the world go around” – the differences! How can that not be okay?
4. Not all of spiritual life is contained with the christian tradition, nor within the christian sphere. My own spirituality and spiritual life blossomed only after I left the Church, over its sexual hypocrisy, not my own sexual confusion, and after I discovered the life and work and thought of Aldus Huxley. The most valuable class I ever attended was an exploration of the texts Huxley used to formulate and expound on and in The Perennial Philosophy.
For myself, although I attended Church every Sunday through High School, even singing in the choir, I never appreciated the pomp and pagentry that went with the myth and ritual of my Roman Catholic upbringing until I saw a performance of Leonard Bernstein’s MASS in Atlanta in the ’70s. The levels of irony in that small statement boggle the mind, but I ‘attended’ the meaning of the ritual for the first time, watching it unfold onstage before me. Ever since then I have fully accepted that the theatre is my church, and attending a performance is my celebration.
And I was never able to come to terms honestly with my spirituality until I came to terms with my sexuality; hiding from the latter left me no energy with which to pursue the former. I found myself, I discovered myself outside conventional religion, outside conventional sexuality, and this allowed me to more fully know my own position in both realms.